ALL APOLOGIES #XCVII

I wish I had a sister
or owned a mirror and tits
because I missed something important
growing up without enough of a female presence
to show me what girls are like.

I didn’t mean what I said
– well, I meant it,
but not in the way
you took it
or, at least, not that hard.

I don’t know how to make this better
or anything better
because, while I know
I’m an idiot,
I don’t know how else to be.

I would fix it
– I would treat you correct –
if I knew what girls were
or how to express myself
or,
or…

I don’t get it.
I never have.
I’m trying.
Please:
help.