“NO”

When you asked
to borrow my computer,
even though I hadn’t used it in months,
I said “No,”
because I couldn’t admit
that I wouldn’t be writing
anything with it.

I refused to accept
that my writer’s block
had grown into a house
and then a housing complex
with government subsidies
and, instead of telling you,
“Sure,”
I told myself,
“Get off your ass and DO something.”

Unfortunately,
my ass is really comfortable
and hard to get off of
and I didn’t get much done
in the intervening eight months.
I’m sorry I didn’t lend you
the laptop, but
I’m glad
you were able to finish your novel anyway.