AWKWARD UNCOMFORTABLE AND

She seemed to like me
even though I was at my most awkward
uncomfortable and flustered.
You seem a little lost, she said, taking my hand,
You want to get out of here?

I closed my eyes
before this gorgeous girl,
thought about it a minute,
and said
I do not know.

I do not know what I want
or where I am
really.
This place is strange
and I feel awkward
and uncomfortable.

I don’t really get what you’re looking for
or how I fit in to it
– or if I do at all.
This place is very loud
and I am very drunk
– or as drunk
as I allow myself to get
in such a flustering place.

As you said,
I am at a loss,
and I do not know
if I can easily be found.

In the time you said that,
she told me,
I banged the two guys at the next table over
and they were obviously gay.
Now do you want to continue
analyzing your asshole
or you want to go to my place?

All right, I replied.
I don’t know what that means,
she said.
You know, I said, grabbing my coat,
neither do I.