I thought i finally found the balance.
This girl meant nothing to me
so I took her in,
put it in,
and felt secure
that she would never get inside me.

This girl could be fine
for a while
as I gained courage,
attained pleasure,
remained aloof.

It all went according to plan
until
I felt something
and then more
for this girl that meant nothing.
Somehow,
she had dug deep into me
planting some smart seed
that took time to bear fruit.

Now,
I care
which is precisely what
I wants avoid
and now
I must figure out
how to dig to freedom.