If I don’t hear from you,
thanks.
If I don’t hear from you,
I’m glad we had the time we did.
If I don’t hear from you, understand:
I don’t blame you.
And be sure you understand that,
because I may not be saying it at the time,
may be saying the very opposite
in the heart of the moment
– but it’s just that,
the heart of the moment,
a pulsing bloody thing
that is too sensitive for its own good
and looking for some way to deflect fault
away from its own intense vulnerability.

…
Maybe I will blame you
a little
but understand,
if I don’t hear from you,
I won’t mean it
and I’ll get better
and I’ll be better
if you ever do see fit
to let me hear from you again.