It has been quite some time
since I have felt so stupid
so awkward
so ill-fit.
I am not used to this level of
fluster in my speech
or hesitance in step.
Is this what love feels like
or dementia?

I am slow.
I am stunted.
I am walking with a limp.
I am at a loss as to what to say or do,
what things to focus on
or what wars to wage.
I am unsure of so much
and I do not believe I like it.
No,
I don’t my think I like this much at all.

Unfortunately,
I cannot trust my own decisioning
because of what was said above.
Can you help me with what to do
or think
or say?
Please,
can you help?