I’m trying to remain calm
to keep my cool.
I’m trying not to say what I’m feeling
mostly because
I don’t know what that is yet.

I know I’m pissed
and frustrated
and fairly unhappy
but I don’t have a handle on why
or what to do about it
so I want to keep it under control
until I’m more in touch
with myself.

I want to throttle something
but
it’s good.
It’s good.
It’s cool.
I can tamp this down
– I’ve got the experience doing that,
the years of sublimation
that is my birthright.
I can manage
just a little bit longer
until I understand what is going on
and then,
I can attack
with full confidence.

Fuck it.
WHO THE HELL
ERASED LAST SEASON OF MY STORIES?