Being myself hasn’t worked
nor has being sweet.
Kindness and generosity and wit
have done me no good
nor jealousy or prayer.

So I have worn the muscle T
I’ve shaved my head
I have grown the van dyke you complemented on Michael.
I am exercising.
I am becoming another.

I am doing what I can
as I can
to become the person
you would like me to be.
I am trying.
I am striving.
I am working
to earn your love.

How long will it take
for me to accomplish that goal
to arrive at that desired peak
to become the man that you deserve?
And after I win your favor
how long will it take
for me to earn my own?