I’ve been a bad boyfriend
and a bad friend.
I’ve been sad when joy was required
and hid generosity
when that was all you deserved.
I served you but poorly
in every way I can consider.

I don’t think I’ll be seeing you much after tonight
which is all I deserve, sure,
but please
for this last time
stay with me.

I want to be with someone tonight
I need to touch someone
and though I can’t offer you
anything more
grant this final request.

You can’t fix everything.
Sometimes
you can’t fix anything.
Certainly
you can’t fix me.
So far
nothing ever has.

Give me this
undeserving as I’ve become.
Show me this ultimate kindness.
Help me see
how to love you
only now
that you’ve learned how to say goodbye.