It’s too early
to be this tired.
My eyes
cannot stay open
and my brain
has long been shut.

I am out of it
and off my game.
I can’t walk straight
and it’s all from this evening
watching over
those adorable monsters.

It took them hours to get to sleep
which includes messes and fights
and farts and matches
and time
– blessed time –
wasted on the most idiotic of projects.
Anything to keep them occupied.
Anything to sate their bread and circa.

I want to sleep.
I want to die.
I want to watch reality TV
until it all blurs away.
I am lost.
I am exhausted
I need respite from these children.

Momma
for all the things I did
and thought and said
growing up.
I am sorry.

Only two more days
as a nanny
before I can quit.