I’m sorry
but it’s not going to happen
today.
Try as you might
anticipate and plan
you’re still not dying of anything.
Not in the short term
at least.

I have no doubt in another hundred years
you’ll be buried with the rest of us
and
if you’re lucky
it will be an ugly
bitter and divisive fight with mortality
for you.
Then you’ll have earned your demise.
You’ll have been as sick as you think.

But
there’s no evidence
of what you’ll be fighting
not that this doctor can see.

Keep going, though.
Keep searching
hunting, uncovering.
Someday you will find that thing
which will threaten you
and might someday kill you.
With enough will
you will find your enemy
and you will battle it
and you will lose.

I have faith in you.
Some day soon
with enough work
you’ll be dead yet.