Society moves too fast.
I am too old.
I am feeling increasingly
on the wrong side of history.

I know.
I’m ashamed of some of my positions
my need for air conditioning on a sunny day.
I know I should be biking everywhere
and opening my doors to the homeless.
I know what Jesus would do
and I cannot find it
in my soul
to do it.

I want to shut that baby up.
I want to cage all the animals
and insects
and bomb every disease
with all the drugs I can invent.
I want to get good gas mileage
exclusively so I can drive
cheaper.

I used to have causes.
Now I have convenience.
I used to care.
Now I’m unconvinced.
I used to want to fix the world.
Now I just want to fit in.

I’m in the wrong
I know it.
But
but knowing’s half the battle, right?
I’m still all right,
right?