Right now
I cannot be touched.
I do not seek the feel of another
across my skin
the sense of pressure from someone else’s body.
I do not wish to feel anyone
making any form of contact.

I am shell shocked.
I am haunted.
I am crushed in outlook and visage
and cannot bear
the associations of others.
I seek solace only
in solitude.

I feel beaten and ashamed
and deserve no other to be near me
after these defeats
that I never imagined possible.
I am not worthy of touch.
Please respect that
and for now
leave the ogre alone.