So this
is the emotion I’m supposed to feel?
The form of connection to the world
that will make me grow as an individual?
This
feeling
and others like it
this is how I’m supposed to become a better person?
This is the way to my own personal transformation?
This?

This sucks.
This thunk in my chest
the shake in my legs
the weakness and withering looks
I’m getting from everyone around me?
This is a horror show.
I will not repeat this willingly.

If these emotions
are the price of adulthood
then book me back to Never-Never Land.
Fuck this place.
I’ll look for some pirates to fight.
This is some shit I do not need.