Is it fair to say I loved her
when I only watched her
from afar?

I thought about her
all the time.
I envisioned her
in innumerable fantasies.
I placed her
as a goal on my vision board
before I had a vision board
or really concretely developed goals.

She was my everything
but was she my love?
I didn’t know her
as much as I wanted to.

My picture of her…
that was loveable
but how close was it
to the real thing?

They sure looked alike,
I can tell you that.