I am working to free myself of things I didn’t used to say
but despite considering myself
a forthright kind of guy
there are so many things
that I didn’t used to say
and there are SO MANY THINGS
that I still don’t say.

I have a therapist
that is not enough in my confidence
which is pretty stupid
because what am I paying him for?

And I decided decades ago
that having a best friend
was risky
because there were different contices
for different relationships
so maybe there was a Best Friend of the West Side
and a Best Friend at Work
and so on and so forth
so who do I talk to
when I need
to get it off
my hairy chest?

Oh!
I should mention
that I thought that Contices
was a word
(the plural of Context).
It’s not. I looked it up
(several times, really).

I don’t always get words right.
Usually
I just reinvent the language
to fit my needs
but in this case
I’m just willing
to let contices
go.

Soon
there may be other truths
coming down the pike.