I have a tendency
to leave late in the game.
I find it hard to leave from things
because I want to make sure
I have gotten my money’s worth at an event.

Conversely, I want to ensure that my hosts
have experienced all they can from me
as a guest before I depart.
I want to guarantee my presence has been well felt.
So I’ll often be the last one to exit the party
waiting until that false yawn is performed.
I may be looking for it
so I can make my getaway.

I don’t know how I came to be this person
or how I can change it.
I don’t know how I became so
unmalleable.
I don’t know how I can change more.

Would that I could depart this kind of person
and arrive in a new form
a better one.

What would I be then?