There are things I used to do
that I am doing again:
I am writing
I am reading
I am performing.

I am sleeping late
I am eating excessively
I am spending too much money.

I am worrying about the things I am not doing
taking notes of activities that should be filling my days
instead of making lists of my accomplishments.

I am drifting off-course.

I am becoming what I once was
which is not what I want to be.
I want to become myself
from a different time, so:
I want to be who I was,
not who I was
(We need more tenses
in the language
– as if I weren’t tense enough).

I know the process never ends,
that I’ll never finish transforming,
but it would be nice

if I could settle somewhere
good.