We never spoke honestly
and by “we” I mean me.
You may have been as honest as can be
– I’m not in your head.
I’m in my head all the time,
and I can tell you I was not honest
– certainly not enough.

I did not speak the truth
when you asked me what I wanted.
I played easy-going
but I never am.
I am hard-going
and anxious
and snappy
and this almost certainly played into
why I am your ex now.

If I could have spoken the truth,
perhaps you would not have lost patience with me
so quickly.

I hope that is true.
That would give me something to shoot for
with someone else.