I think I need a brain wash,
a chance to clear my head,
to get clean and think free.
I need some kind of mental enema
to fix whatever’s been going wrong
and set me on a better path.

I’ve been circling the drain
cycling through pain
searching for my mainline
receiving a pipeline of toxins
tending to total my equanimity.
I need to uncover my own anonymity
and hide from myself.

If I could just wipe away my past,
my memory,
my identity
and become something fresh and good,
that would be wonderful.
That would be wondrously wicked.
That would be ideal.

I have to have
some way
to kill me
in order to save me.
You get me?

I need a brain wash
or – shit.
Have I already had one?