I know what I’m supposed to say
how I should act
at least in this instance
but for the life of me
I can’t stand straight and fly right.

Knowing the thing to do
is not always enough
to be able to do that thing.

So I’m sorry
for how I left things
and I wish I could tell you
sincerely
that yesterday was a day
that will never be repeated
but I cannot in confidence
share any such thing.

I am the same idiot
I was yesterday
and all odds
along with prior history
point to the distinct possibility
that I will betray you again
in much the same way.

I know what I did
and I wish I could stop it
but I don’t yet know
how I could pull that off.