I am sorry.
I am trying.
I am struggling.
I am changing
and I am not sure what I am changing into
and though I hope it is something better
I cannot say
that the process is an easy one.

I am trying to become normal with you
and I can tell
that I am so far failing.
I’ll get it right
on my eighth iteration
or my eightieth.
I’ll keep trying
to find a way
not to be a freak in your presence
as long as you let me try.

If you have the patience
then so do I.